Thinking Too Much

Its getting closer to the due dates of my two little angels and as usual my mind is beginning to wander. Why is it so easy for some people to have babies? People who don't need them, people who don't want them. But for some of us, who really do want them... it is so difficult. Why? Not only have I lost 2 babies, but I have been unable to even conceive a third time. It just makes me so mad sometimes, so sad. I want a child more than anything in this world.

Changes

We have decided to cancel our internet in order to save more money each month. I'm not sure when it will be shutting off but after that point, I will be checking emails/blogs/etc. once a week at the library. I do hope I will be able to start do more blogging in the near future.